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I have broke that plateau and so proud of myself.  I have been telling myself for a month that it was time for me to sign up at the gym.  I have hesitating because I feel more comfortable exercising at home.  I have lost 37 pounds on my own at home and very proud of that.  My worst fear came true and that was that I would get stuck in the 180’s just like I have in the past.  I guess that is what they call your body’s set point.  No matter how much i tried I could not get under 180.  So this Monday I started back at the gym.  I had to buy me some more workout clothes because everything I use to wear was too big. (thank goodness).  I searched for clothes that would help me feel comfortable and make me feel like I belong there.  After my neck and back injury and surgery I was scared of hurting myself.  I have gone 3 times so far this week and I am completely surprised.  I had more indurance and strengh then I did before my injury.  I kicked butt and worked harder than I ever did and it felt sooo good.  And to my surprise I have lost 3 pounds this week.  I am down to 177 and am so happy.  It was just wanted I needed.  I am going again tomorrow my goal is to go Mon, Tues, and Thurs, Friday and maybe do some extra cardio if I get time on the weekends.  I start out by getting on the eclipical machine for 5 minutes to warm my body up.  On Monday’s and Thursdays I work my lower body and on Tues and Fridays I do the upper.  After I lift weights I go back to cardio and work on the treadmill for a mile or two depending on time and how I am feeling.  I am extremely sore and that is good because it is telling me that I am working hard.  I am hoping to be down another pound tomorrow but not hoping too much.  I had lost my motivation and had been really down on myself for a while now.  It is good to be back on track.

The hardest part of the 5k was getting up so early.  I am not a morning person at all.  I worked 3 years in the hospital doing 12 hour shifts at night and still stuck on that.  There were a lot of people there and very cold I think around 35 degrees.  I went with my sister and she agreed to do the 5K.  There were two choice’s doing a 3k or the 5k.  When we walked 3k there was a turn off that you go if that is all you want to do or go straight to do the 5k.  I am walking and notice she is not beside me and look back and she turned off.  Actually I was happy about that because I had to stop walking several times to let her catch up.  I must say that I felt good about that because it means I have improved on my walking.  My sister is in denial about her weight.  She is not extremely overweight but has to be near two hundred if not a little over.  She is also diabetic and taking insulin which is a new thing.  I even mentioned to my mother that she needs to lose weight and my mother said she is not fat.  Well yes she is and her diabetes proves that.  Now that I have walked with her and she can not walk that far or that fast just proves that it is time to lose the weight.  She is so hard headed and no matter what I say she will not change.  She has not said one word about my weightloss either.  My mother can’t believe the changes in me but she wont acknowledge it at all.  But I know from experience it has to come from inside her me wanting it for her will not work.  But I am very proud of myself because I finished the 5k in 45 minutes which means I can do a mile in 15 minutes and when I first started walking it took me over 3o minutes to walk a mile. Then today instead of taking the day off I did another workout with jillian.  I did the front side DVD.  I was going to do the backside but I need a step and rubberband things.  So planning on it tomorrow.  I am just proud of myself that for 3 days straight I have exercised even though I have a very painful pulled muscle in my hip.  I refuse to use that as an excuse.  I hope I see the scale move down.  I am trying to break thru that barrier of 180.  So hears hoping…

I have been a huge fan of the show since the very first episode and very excited that it is finally back.  It could have not come at a better time.  As most of you know I have been struggling lately and almost ready to give up.  I am at the same spot I was at last  year when I could not get under 179.  Here I am a year later after losing 33 pounds and stuck at the same spot.  So frustrating and makes you feel like you have gone as far as you can.  I know that is not true because before I had kids I was a normal weight.  So I have been ordering movies from netflixs and getting the walking dvd’s and doing them.  I rented Jillian Micheal’s dvd’s and they have set there for a week.  I love her so much as a trainer but have to admit she scares me.  So today I decided when I got home from dropping my son off at Kindergarten I was just going to try it.  I started with the front side for beginners.  It was 6 circuits and intense.  I don’t think I have ever sweated so much.  Now sitting here I feel good, better than I did before I did the dvd.  I have to say it was a tough workout but not something I can’t do.  I love doing weights and she did cardio and weights so got both out of the way at once.  She has another dvd called the backside for beginners and I really can’t wait to try it.  I am shooting for this weekend but it is hard to exercise when my husband is home.  I am afraid he will walk in while I am doing it and that would make me feel embarrassed.  I also have a 5k tomorrow for Alzheimer’s disease.  My grandfather who was a college professor and college basketball couch and died of this.  He died not knowing anyone and helpless.  So this is very important to me and my sister.  I feel like now with the show on and doing her workouts I might be able to push thru this and get under 179.  What a happy day that will be.  So if anyone else out there is struggling and have not watched the biggest loser check it out tuesday nights and I hope it will inspire you as much as it has me..

Ok, so thought I was down to 179 which was my second mini goal but as it turns out my scale was off.  I used 20 pound weights and as it turns out my digital scale was right and my other one was off so now I am 185 and not very happy about it.  I thought I was over my hurdle but instead I am right on top of it.  I was so motivated but now just a little pissed to say the least.  I still have 60 hard pounds to go.  I do have to admit my eating has not been as good as it could of been so I only have myself to blame.  Today I need to make new goals and get myself back on track.  I have committed to a new team the Hot  rods so  hoping with a new team I will find the extra support and motivation that I am in need of.  So going to go to the forum and post my goals and commit to doing my challenges everyday.  It is important to me to get those 6 pounds off as fast as I can.  I know it is only going to happen with hard work from me.

It is amazing how clothes that you never could fit into but you hold on to just hoping one day you can wear them.  Well that one day has finally come for me.  I can’t believe how something so trivel as fitting into clothes after years can make you feel so good about yourself.  I was starting to lose my motivation and was starting to get back into my old habits because the scale was not moving fast enough for me.  But I have lost a lot of inches and I know that 185 is in no ways skinny but I don’t feel like that huge woman anymore.  I still have a long way to go to reach my goal but more determined now then I was in the beginning and now that I will make it.  I just have to take the bad days with the good and not let the bad days slow me down but instead make them push me even harder.  I am very thankful for this site because it has been the people and the support you all give that helps make it through and bad days.  So thanks for that!!

I was so happy to have lost 2 pounds and then this morning one pound back.  I just feel like giving up sometimes.  This is the same spot I got stuck at last year and did give up and gained a lot more weight all the way up to 216.  Now I am at 187 and am happy to have lost 29 pounds just worried I will never lose anymore and start gaining it back again.  I need my motivation back so if anyone has it please send it my way.

I am at 186 yeah I had gained 3 pounds with the heat and it feels good to be losing it again.  Can’t wait to see 185 on the scale again and hopefully it will be tomorrow.  Since I started this weight loss journey I have been so focused on it and nothing else.  I may have become a little obsessed with it..I have only sat at this computer everyday all day..My house I have only done the bare necessities to keep it looking good but not really clean.  My husband finally noticed and it made me feel bad because he is out working everyday and since my neck injury I have been home and this should be my job.  So since yesterday I have been working really hard on this house and what I realized is that is probably why I am losing the weight again because i am up doing things and not just sitting at this laptop.  Now when i am ready for a break or for breakfast or lunch then I will get on here but only then in between cleaning.  I know my weight loss is making my husband very proud he even looks at me differently.  That is my motivation everyday but he doesn’t want a skinny lazy wife so need to be a skinny good wife..if that makes sense..

My fingers are so swollen and I know it is all water weight it is so hot here and no air in the house.  Wondering if anyone else is experiencing this and how to get rid of it.  I am going to try some water pills tomorrow and see if that works.  I just walked 2 miles and jogged a quarter of a mile and just feel worse and I know it has to be from the heat.   I am just proud of myself because I said this week no excuses I was going to exercise no matter what this week and so far I have.  I have been buying new clothes this week and it is so good to be able to go in the store and find things that fit and feel good about it.  The hardest thing I have trouble with is finding good workout clothes that look good on me.  I usually wear just shorts and a big t-shirt but does not work out will when you are trying to run also fixing the big bulky shirt and way to hot for it.  Really want to drop a few pounds this week I have my husbands family reunion this Sunday but not going to if I can’t get rid of this water.  We did not go last year to his family reunion so almost none of his family have seen me under 200 pounds so looking forward to it this year.

I went to the high school and walked two miles and ran a quarter of that two miles and I feel a lot better.  I hope it changes the numbers on the scale.  I am doing the Alzheimer’s walk next month and it is a 5K and really would be great to jog it not just walk it.  I just want to say thanks for all the support I am getting on here from my buddies because I could not do this alone.

It has been so hot here that I have been making excuses and not exercising and not eating right.  So of course I gained 3 pounds.  We went camping this weekend and I also used that as an excuse and ate badly.  It is hard to be around other people that are not concerned about what they eat.  It is so easy to give in and eat what they do even though in the back of my mind I know what it is going to do to my body.  I am just happy that it was only a few days and a few pounds and I have the sense to know to come back here and get my motivation and support and get back on track.  In the past I would just keep going and give up my diet and exercise but now I know I can’t do that I have to get healthy and lose this weight.  I am thankful for sites like this that are free and have such great people on them to get you back on track.  So I am going to commit myself to blogging everyday even if I have nothing to say.  The more I am on here the better I am on my diet and exercise so going to make that my goal..